ain’t a god in heaven that’ll ever mean shit to me and without her kiss I fear I’ll never get a good night’s sleep.

Music: Weak – The Beltones

I never broke my number one rule, but last night I dreamt of you. Yeah, the shit we did it was way out of line, and now I think about it all the time. And now whenever I look at you, I think of all the things we’ll never do. If I was stronger when it came to sin, I’d wish I never had that dream again, but I’m weak. So I pray to god and take or leave my soul to keep. Cos I ain’t got no soul, just broken dreams and bloodstained sheets. And ain’t a god in heaven that’ll ever mean shit to me. And without her kiss I fear I’ll never get a good night’s sleep. Another night with nothing much to do, as the sadness turns to sickness in my lonely room. Betaing myself up cos I’m missing you, Jonny’s on the phone he says “let’s get a brew”. Well another old bar won’t be nothing new, but it beats beating my brain in just turning the screw. If I were stronger when it came to sin, I’d wish I never had that dream again. I’ve been beaten many times before, but I still flash this crooked smile. I guess I really shouldn’t complain, I guess I’ve been blessed all the while. Too many times I’ve thrown a fist when I probably should’ve turned a cheek. They look at me like I’m a strong man, but I’m two feet tall. Yeah I’m nothing at all. I’m fucking weak…

you call it your right. I call it your weakness….

Fact Leaves Its Ghost – Converge
Children in Heat – The Misfits
Cosmo Retro Intro Outro – Amon Tobin
Real Deal – Antidote
Don’t Care – Circle Jerks
Race & Nation – Skrewdriver (for Kitzel)
We Exchanged Words – Azure Ray
Empty Promises – Turning Point
Step Into The Light – Archers of Loaf

Gauv and I

Josh Trustkill, Me, and Robbie Redcheeks (what is wrong with my mouth…)

It was so good to see so much family this weekend. Syracuse is still a shit hole, but it is home to so many good dudes.

I got a speeding ticket and I didn’t even care. Maybe I am losing my temper as I get older…I doubt it.

It’s good to have someone that makes you want to drive though the night to lay next to.

I have my own mind now I make my own choices I am my own lord in these days From now on this world won’t defeat me.

Who Dares Wins – Path Of Resistance
Dead Alone – In Flames
Walk Away – Bad Relgion
If You Fall – Steve Earle
Spit On Your Grave – Madball
Between The Wars – Billy Bragg


Fuck I need these…

ok, I have to stop.

I am so stoked..Epitaph sent over the whole Bad Religion catalog…
it’s like I’m in 10th grade again.

They can have my iPod when they can have my guns, when they pry it from my cold dead hand!

The Humpty Dance – Digital Underground
Casey’s Last Ride – Johnny Cash
Untitled – Black Tape For A Blue Girl
Hair And Nails – Backstabbers, INC.
Bluff Called – Between Us

After much dicsussion on this subject amongst my friends everytime I am in NYC, it looks like others have caught on…
The Times warns iPod users against using the bundled headphones when using the MP3 player in public places: “The distinctive ‘earbud’ white headphones are a giveaway to criminals that a highly desirable iPod, costing up to £400, is concealed about the street-walking music lover, according one reader: “Todays UK “The Times” (UK’s 2nd major broadsheet) newspaper carries a front page article and photograph detailing the rise in attacks on iPod owners by muggers and reports police advise owners to avoid using the tell-tale white iPod earphones.”
and this story from
“West Midlands police have issued a stark warning to iPod users: ditch the white headphones or pay the price.

Fashion-conscious music lovers are apparently being targeted by muggers. The Times tells the sorry tale of 22-year-old language student Roland Baskerville, who lost his 20GB model on the mean streets of Birmingham: “I was walking down the road near to my home when a man who was walking the other way pointed at my headphones.”

The thief then asked Baskerville if he was listening to an iPod and, receiving an affirmative answer, he “pulled a knife out and started waving it at me, saying: ‘Well hand it over, then.’ I gave it to him and he ran off. He must have known I was wearing an iPod because of the white headphones.”
Bring it.


The New Year – Azure Ray
Night Of The Living Dead – The Misfits

Promise Ring anyone? Martha trying to look like what the typical person who cares about what I write about in here would look like…

Mac dorks, run your software update, iChat 2.1 came out today…

I stole this from Guav…

No dreams breed in breathless sleep – Dissection
Beyond the North Waves – Immortal

You know the deal.
Everything with an X is something I have NEVER done.
Everything left blank is something I HAVE done

(X) I Never Have Been Drunk
(_) I Never Have Smoked Pot
(_) I Never Have Kissed A Member Of The Opposite Sex
(_) I Never Have Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(_) I Never Crashed A Friend’s Car
(X) I Never Have Been To Japan
(_) I Never Rode In A Taxi
(_) I Never Had Anal Sex
(_) I Never Had Oral Sex
(_) I Never Have Been In Love
(_) I Never Had Sex
(X) I Never Have Had Sex In Public
(_) I Never Have Been Dumped
(_) I Never Shoplifted
(_) I Never Have Been Fired
(_) I Never Been In A Fist Fight
(X) I Never Had A Threesome
(_) I Never Snuck Out Of My Parent’s House
(_) I Never Been Tied Up
(_) I Never Been Caught Masturbating
(_) I Never Pissed On Myself
(X) I Never Had Sex With A Member Of The Same Sex
(_) I Never Been Arrested
(X) I Never Made Out With A Stranger
(_) I Never Stole Something From My Job
(X) I Never Celebrated New Years In Time Square
(_) I Never Went On A Blind Date
(_) I Never Lied To A Friend
(_) I Never Had A Crush On A Teacher (Does Currently Count?)
(_) I Never Celebrated Mardi-Gras In New Orleans
(X) I Never Been To Europe
(_) I Never Skipped School
(_) I Never Slept With A Co-Worker
(_) I Never Cut Myself On Purpose
(X) I Never Had Sex At The Office
(X) I Never Have Been Married
(X) I Never Have Been Divorced
(_) I Never Had Sex With More Than One Person Within The Same Week
(X) I Never Have Posed Nude
(X) I Never Got Someone Drunk Just To Have Sex With Them
(X) I Never Have Killed Anyone
(_) I Never Received Scars From My Sex Partner
(X) I Have Never Thrown Up In A Bar
(_) I Have Never Purposely Set A Part Of Myself On Fire
(_) I Have Never Eaten Sushi
(X) I Have Never Been Snowboarding
(X) I Have Never Had Sex At A Friend’s House While They Were Throwing A Party
(X) I Have Never Had Sex In A Dressing Room
(_) I Have Never Cheated On A Boyfriend/Girlfriend
(X) I Have Never Flashed Anyone.
(_) I Have Never Legally Purchased Pornography